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Saturday, August 23rd, 2008
10:38 am	Normal, simple, plain update, no test hahaha Hey guys, this is not going to be a long, nor very interesting update. But oh well. Thursday, after I gave my last real update, was pretty uneventfu apart from sports which I finally enjoyd and a bible study which I held and which we all found quite chalenging. Yesterday was quite relaxed until I heard about something, freaked out before hearing the other side of the story and was totally down for the rest of the night until things cleared up. No deetails shall be given here. I was so glad when Sami and Christine came and we played a board game twice and then went buying some things. Afterwards we went to subway, which was quite ... interesting, because somehow Sami and me seem to have a competition in who is more beside him/herself today. First I almost sat on Christine's handbag. Then, when I had my second coke, my arm touched it and it decided to empty itself on my trousers, my shirt, my handbag and some other thingies. Fun. Not. Gladly it was diet coke, so not too much sugar. Phew. Yay for me liking diet coke, it sure has advantages. Hee. And while the lady cleaned up, Christine baught herself and Sami each a cookie. But what did Sami do? He, without thinking, grabbed my cookie and ate it!! He ate his afterwards and then they baught me a new one, besides me buying three more because I was on the mood of eating out of frustration. As I ordered those three cookies, I chatted to Sami and didn't realize that the clerk just sttood there, waiting for me to place my order. Until Sami reminded me. Sorry, but ... this was not my fault, was it? He saw my cane and he should have informed me that he was waiting. Lol. I felt quite awward. Oh well. I ended up staying up til 4:30 in the evening and today I only got up because first my radio alarm went off, then my mobile alarm went off, then someone rang the doorbell, then my boyfriend rang my mobile and then Ute, the oldest lady here, came with that littlle annoying pant-shitting two-year-old that ives here. Sorry for that expression, but I sometimes get very annoyed when I hear him cause he's just noisy and annoying. But she informed me that she had put some whole-meal bread out for me and made me my Mate-tea, which I do apreciate. I am going to grab that in a minute. Later I am going to go to a summer reunion of the blind meeting I am in. Hopefully Ines will come too to make it less awward, because I am the youngest with 21 and the oldest is 87. Ah well, we wil see. I just feel I desperately am in need of gav coming in 17 days. I need him and he needs me and we just count the days, hoping they will go by really really really really fast until we are in each other's arms. I know I am a hopeless romantic but that's just me. Hee. The fact that lately, so many people that I know are marrying, makes me think of our own wedding, hopefully next spring or summer, if all is well. I am not really waiting for my parents' approval. I don't realy give a ... something ... about their opinion, but just want to be fair and want them to have a chance to meet them and him have a chance to meet the lovely in-laws. Fun. Not. I hope they will not be too harsh and will not gossip about him afterwards like the shit they said about my friend Saskia, gossipping about her even with strangers. If I hear them doing that about Gav I am going to stop the f...ing contact. Sorry for the anger in me. Yes, I do respect their opinions but not if they are presented in gossip form to a person who does not even know the person they talk about! I could have slapped them last year when they did that, I seriously coud have. And I am not having this shit again, especially after the state gav has been in lately. No further comments about that, however. Gosh I better keep that entry to friends only, I scare myself. But it needs to be said. The last thing that I want him to experience is rejection. I have been feeling quite protective about him ately. The other concern I have is the restrictions of this house I live here, which are, to be honest, totally ridiculous. I am not going to ask permission to every time I hold him, and if they want that, then I will move out right there and then. I even said this to him. They are too controlling here for me. I know that the LORD might have placed me here to learn to submit to others but that's what I hate and sometimes I Just can't because sometimes I simply feel that some things are none of their dammed business. For example my room and my finances and my relationship. That reminds me of how my parents controlled me far too often. And I have swalowed things long enough. I will speak up from now on because if I swallow everything it's going to go against myself or against innocent people in the end and I want to avoid that. And ust so everyone knows I don't care, I am not even going to protect this entry. Sorry for my rambling, I never thought that would happen now, but that just has to get out sometimes and writing it down is the best thing to do. Current Mood: bitchy (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Friday, August 22nd, 2008
12:07 pm	one more again   You Are 48% Open Minded You aren't exactly open minded, but you have been known to occasionally change your mind. You're tolerant enough to get along with others who are very different... But you may be quietly judgmental of things or people you think are wrong. You take your own values pretty seriously, and it would take a lot to change them. How Open Minded Are You? Or share this Blogthing with a direct link: http://www.blogthings.com/howopenmindedareyouquiz/ Current Mood: Possibly a tiny bit bored (Comment on this)
11:55 am	I would not want to have any other result anyways.   You Are Not Prejudiced Not only are you color blind, but you're also ethnicity blind, gender blind, and sexual orientation blind. You don't judge someone until you truly know them. And even then, you're probably reluctant to judge. You try to treat everyone equally. Everyone has a fair chance with you. Good job - there's not a prejudiced bone in your body. Are You Prejudiced? Or share this Blogthing with a direct link: http://www.blogthings.com/areyouprejudicedquiz/ Current Mood: happy Current Music: church bells ringing lol (Comment on this)
11:49 am	Omg I Love this!!! That#s a lovely result!!!   You Are Valentine's Day You are a true romantic who places the ultimate importance on love. You are warm hearted, and you find it easy to care for people. Love is what drives you - and you have a love to give. You enjoy making someone's day. You're full of surprises. What makes you celebrate: Being with the person you love on a special day At holiday get togethers, you do best as: The sentimental one On a holiday, you're the one most likely to: See it as romantic and special What Holiday Are You? Or share this Blogthing with a direct link: http://blogthings.com/whatholidayareyouquiz/ Current Mood: happy Current Music: my snoring test and Craig smith/Hosanna music: Draw me closer (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, August 21st, 2008
11:52 am	one more ...   You Are 71% Grown Up, 29% Kid Congratulations, you are definitely quite emotionally mature. Although you have your moments of moodiness, you're usually stable and level headed. How Emotionally Mature Are You? Current Mood: definitely bored (1 Comment |Comment on this)
11:48 am	Also very interesting ...   You Are a Realist You don't see the glass as half empty or half full. You see what's exactly in the glass. You never try to make a bad situation seem better than it is... But you also never sabotage any good things you have going on. You are brutally honest in your assessments of situations - and this always seems to help you cope. Are You An Optimist or Pessimist? Current Mood: Maybe slightly bored???? (Comment on this)
11:42 am	I get to liking these tests more and more ...   You Are 74% Real You know who you are, and you're pretty darn comfortable with yourself. Like everyone, you struggle with the parts of yourself that aren't so great... But you're good at accepting who you are and not dwelling on your faults. As a result, you're confident, optimistic, and very real. How Real Are You? Current Mood: good (Comment on this)
9:18 am	Self test: Snoring Oh oh oh, guys, that is totaly crazy and scary. Last night I did a self-test. I put my tiny recording machine on the chair next to my bed and recorded myself snoring. Why? Not just for fun, but to see if I had any breas between breathing and what could be the reason for me being thirsty al the time at night. I listened this morning, and gosh, I sound like my own father, only the fast version. I am b reathing really fast! I might talk to a lung specialist about that because it really does scare me. But it is also helarious hearing myself snore and groan in my seep. MIght do it again this night to see if there is any change. Current Mood: amused but worried Current Music: me snoring hahaha (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, August 20th, 2008
12:12 pm	My ups and downs Hey guys, I realy have no idea how long I have not wrote in here. Probably since Monday the fourth. My. Long time. Oh well: I can't think of everything then anymore, sorry. Well, August the fifth I was annoyed when I saw that I gained weight even though I did a tun of walking on the weekend at the christian camp thing. Oh wel. Wednesday I did something totally embarrassing in the evening. I mean, I have water in my legs, so when there was the teaching evening I ased if it was okay to put my legs up. Bernhard said of course that would be okay. However it put me in such a comfortable position that I felt sleepy soon afterwards and suddenly caught myself snoring. I tried to get myself together but soon I was in a deep deep sleep and Martin had to call me twice. I sat up and was totally shocked and everyone was laughing. I appologized to Bernhard many many times but he didn't even seem to mind. Before that on Wednesday I was at the doctors, and I got compression socks. Grrrr. And only Bernhard knows how to put them on since he works in a nursing home, but that is exactly the problem: He has to work early often so he can't help me put them on, grrr. Oh well. Thursday we picked those socks up, then.And they gave me trouble when we had sports. Thursday evening Martin had a small Sermon instead of our bible study, about the holy spirit in the end times. Fridiay wasn't important I think, apart from the olympic games starting. I watched some of the opening ceremony before being invited to coffee and cake in the other house here. That evening we were in a coffee bar launge and I had a beer mixed with coke but suddenly I didn't like it anymore. I then ordered a hot coconut milk which I totally loved and I ordered another one. Ended up being totally worried about Martin, who is an ex-alcoholic and he dran a few beers. I wasn't pleased but being 14 years younger than him, who was I to try to stop him? He wasn't drunk but I hope he realized that this was not right. Saturday we went walking of course, then we wanted to go to the Brazilian church. But on our way there, when we wanted to pick up some coffee from starbugs first, we left my things from the drug store in the tram and I was annoyed, so we kept looking for them. We couldn't find them, and, since we kept looking for them, we missed going to that church. So we agreed to meet with a few others to go to another church later, to a revival night. That was great, even though we didn't really get there on time, but it was great .I love that church. Sunday the 10. wasn't that exciting, apart from Ines coming in the afternoon (my friend from school), and we went to Steiger, to the church where the b ible school was, ater. They had no idea how to do the service and Thomas only chose a few songs and some input, and Marus wanted to play two songs on the guitar but they found out that they had no singer. Well, I came there, thinking I wouldn'T have to do anything, or if I had to, only translating. I ended up translating, and when they realized they had no singer, I was spontanious and sang with Markus and they all were totally enthusiastic. I interpreted the whole service and even prayed for people afterwards and I did enjoy it bigtime. Ines was a bit frustrated at the beginning, but as she realized that people accepted her as she was, she was more and more happy. I got to pray for her and another girl and after that she was so so happy. Monday wasn't that exciting, neither was Tuesday apart from finally not gaining weight but keep it. Wednesday was the meeting for the blind which was very nice. Ines came there too and she oved it. I then wanted to buy a few more things in a store, some low-fat milk and some drink. I ended up coming home too late for the teaching evening because the tram has to ride a bit differently due to building at the railways. I appologized but Bernhard is just really great and never seems to be angry at me. Ute would be. She has some strictness on her which I don't like. Anyways that was okay. Thursday was sports again where I was pretty good and we had the bible study afterwards which was short but good. Friday wasn't special appart from the evening where I went to the movies with Ines. Mamma Mia again because I love it and she hadn't seen it. I ended up buying two backs of M&M's and one huuuge coke which we could hardly carry. And then I baught an ice cream, a magnum temptation. Yummy!!!!! I was slightly sick after the movies but still enjoyed it. Ines loved it as well. Saturday we went to the Lake Constance, to the city constance. It was nice apart from a long train ride. When we got there, we split in four groups. Bärbel, Martin and I went through the city. We had a kebab, then I baught a new handbag and a few things fro mthe drug store. We then went down to the lake constance and I baught a magnum temptation again. Lol. I love sitting by the water. Well, and all too soon we went bac. I didn't like the train ride, plus David, the little boy from Bernhard and Claudia, always is so noisy. Oh well. We met up with Lydia, a girl from Steiger, and went to the reviva night again. we came very late and missed quite a bit of worship but not all. I loved the music they were playing. Well, I forgot something. Wednesday, a friend of my boyfriend's told me that I Might need some deliverance. Saturday in the revival night - what did the pastor preach about? Deliverance. I then went to the ministry team and let them pray for me. Well, I told the ady, her name was Iris, what my problem was, and so she started singing in tongues. And then she asked me if I could look in her eyes. I said I was blind. And she said: "You come to me and want prayer to lose weight, but you don't lose one word about your blindness. Have you given up about that?" I explained her that, while not at all giving up praying for my eyesight, there were simply more important things, for example that I didn'T want to have diabetes and I was scared of that. And I suddenly started crying. So she started prophecying over me and whenever she did I cried more and more and more. She said that I will see the LORD's glory with my own eyes and that the LORD wants to give me so much more. And I Just cried and cried. Even after she led me back to my seat, I cried and cried and cried and sobbed and shook and couldn't stop. and I realized something else. Well, I mentionned ealrier that I have water in my feet. They started prickling, just the same as if they had been asleep. But they hadn't. I bleieve that the LORD has touched them. I was so amazed, I kept crying and I Felt so free afterwards!!! It was great. Afterwards Christine, Sami's girlfriend, invited me to Subway and the day was just perfect. Lol. Except ... after bringing Christine to her home, Sami and I rode back by tram and suddenly someone cursed Sami and spit at him and hated him for being a foreigner. I was slightly scared of that man but I admired Sami for being so calm. I started praying that this man wouldn't follow us. He didn't. But I Realized, I felt that the LORD was so sad about those people!!! I could almost feel the LORD's sadness about those people. Sunday we had the service out on a little lake again and it was nice but not too eventful. In the afternoon we wanted to go to the same church as the day before. We, that is, me and Lydia, one of my best friends. But I caught the wrong tram and really got lost, so I arrived way too late. We came there but missed all the worship. I appologized many times to Lydia who seemed less annoyed than I was. The sermon was good and I got prayer afterwards. I didn't like the words that the LORD said through them but that does not mean i won't except them. They said I should come into the light ,and that, even though nothing seems to go forward, just waiting on the LORD might be where the LORD wanted to have me. I felt at peace when we walked home, even though I was not completely happy. Monday wasn't eventful, apart from me finally confessing my sins after a long long time and suddenly having a burden fro mthe LORD for Todd Bentley, the man who led the revival in Lakeland, Florida, and who was severely tempted and went into the temptation of having an immoral relationship now. I realized that we were not t ojudge. EVen the LORD does not judge him but loves him. I felt that he is the first person the LORD gave me a burden for and so I prayed for him, even cried a bit. I prayed for restoration, that the LORD may be a father for his children until he would be healed again and so on. I felt like the LORD gave me the prayers for him. We, Tuesday, that is, yesterday, was great. Lydia came in the afternoon and we had a little prayer walk, despite the rain. I had to buy a few things, so we connected that to the prayer walk and we listened what the LORD sad to each other which was really good. And afterwards I went to the weight loss group and realized I lost 800 G. Finally!!!! Today I was at the doctor's and I heard that I have definitely no diabetes. Phew. That is quite a relief. Talked to my boyfriend a bit and now just sitting here, typing, listening to worship music. That's al for now. Can't wait till when Gav finally comes. Till then I will go to Saskia's and go to the summer party of my old school, and do a few other quite nice things, such as visiting a prophetic seminar. So, all is great. Current Mood: good but hungry. :d Current Music: Hillsong: One way, Jesus (2 Comments |Comment on this)
12:08 pm	Weird quiz, but ... Hey guys, I found this on a few LJ's so I thought why not doing it too? Hope I copy that code correctly haha   You Are a Comma You are open minded and extremely optimistic. You enjoy almost all facets of life. You can find the good in almost anything. You keep yourself busy with tons of friends, activities, and interests. You find it hard to turn down an opportunity, even if you are pressed for time. Your friends find you fascinating, charming, and easy to talk to. (But with so many competing interests, you friends do feel like you hardly have time for them.) You excel in: Inspiring people You get along best with: The Question Mark What Punctuation Mark Are You? Current Mood: amused Current Music: Tim Hughes: Beautifu one (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, August 4th, 2008
12:45 am	Yay for freakstock!!!!! Hey guys, I guess you all as yourselves now what freakstock is. I'll explain now. Lol. Basically Freakstock is a christian event done by Jesus-Freaks, a pretty crazy movement. Crazy, but they surely love Jesus like crazy as well and that is the most important thing. There are many many worship bands, many many concerts, many many workshops and services and many many ... bottles of beer in the evening, which was a slight problem. Lol. Anyway let me start from the beginning here. Wednesday I rode to a village nearby with Sami in the tram. Sami was just coming along to help me with carrying all my stuff. Tent, matress, suitcase and so on. I didn't have a sleeping bag but Miriam, the one I drove with, would have one for me. Anyways we arrived on time but Miriam wasn't there, so we waited around and finaly she came. After loading all our stuff into the car, Sami left and we drove off. After a stop at Miriam's home and in Stuttgart and at Burger King we arrived, quite late actually. They set up our tents. I would sleep on my own. Before that we "checked in", I paid my ticket and we asked if I could be assigned as staff because then I could eat with the staff who wou ld help me. (Plus then food would be for free rather than having to buy it all the time). Surprisingly enough they didn't say a word but just applied the staff wristband to my wrist. I thought there would be a huge dispute. But no, God's grace and favour never ends. Then Miriam had a meeting with her area where she would work, because she was part of the staff at Freakstock. since this was the care-port she took me with her to introduce me and to decide who would help me go around every day. We decided to choose one girl for each day to take me from one place to another since campous was huuuuuuuuge and the ground was very uneven. The girls seemed quite nice and so I was looking forward to it. I went to bed quite early after the service which was amazing. Picture about 1500 christians on their knees and next moment hugging each other. I still get gooseflesh when I think a bout that. I love that when brothers and sisters in the LORD stand together. Anyways, at night in my tent I suddenly had to go to the loo. Trouble was that the next toilets, actually Dixy toilets (I hope that exists in English, basically toilets without canalization which have to be empties now and then) were ten minutes away from me, the campous was dark and little Ines was alone and afraid and ... in urgent need of a loo. Argh. I didn't dare to go out for ages, then finally put on my shoes, grabbed my cane and made my way. I am an adventurous girl, so why not? I walked a few minutes, then stopped, listening if perhaps some nightowl would be kind enough to assist me. There was an orderly with a walkie talkie and so he helped me and they braught me to my tent afterwards. that was ... not lucky, but god's grace. I went to bed (or rather to matress and into my sleeping bag) just really reieved and grateful. The next day Dorothee, the girl assigned to me for that day, had to wake me up because I overslept. It was okay though since it wasn't late at all. I went and took a shower, however queueing for showering took longer than showering actually which was kind of annoying and caused me to not shower again on campous. We arrived rather late for breakfast and weren't allowed into the coffee tent and so we had to beg in the kitchen where, fortunately, Dorothee had relations. So we ate outside but weren't able to get coffee. Grrrrr, I needed it but oh well. At noon I went to a workshosp about healing whic hwas pretty good and then after lunch to a very good srvice, however I slept most of the time, I was so tired and in need of coffee. But in the evening I was awake enough to visit a christian Hip hop concert and went to bed afterwards. That night I had to go to the loo again and was facing the same problem, but encouraged from the last night it wasn't as hard for me to get out. Only there was no orderly this time. I walked and walked and no one was there. finally I heard to people giggling rather far away in the grass, so I stopped, faced them, stretched my arm forward and asked "excuse me?" Only loud enough for them to hear. We were instructed to be quiet at camping area. No response. I wated a while, then called out again: "Excuse me?" Finally they walked closer, very slowly it seemed. I finally asked them if they could help me find the toilet. "we were scared!" they said. They said they thought someone would come and shoot them. And I was thinking "yeah, right. And you are drunk of crazy", but of course I didn't say a thing, just too grateful they actually helped. I went to the loo and then they led me back where they thought my tent was. I thanked them, started to unzip the tent and suddenly heard someone turning in there. I just knew: This was not my tent. The people had been waling away but close enough to realize that something wasn't quite right. So we searched for my tent and finally found it after 15 mins. More exhausted than the night before I fell into my tent. Lol. The next girl had to wake me up again. Grrrr. I didn't shower that time but washed and we were abe to have propper breakfast with coffee in the coffee tent. Then I went to two worship bands where I felt the LORD telling me that I shuld spent more time with him and that he would process my inner healing more quickly. I was quite touched. Then I went to a workshop about missionaric conversation which was ... quite nice, actually ,and then to a service with pretty hard rock music but a great sermon. For the first time in my life I heard people demanding more of a sermon! Basically it started to rain and the preacher wanted to cut the sermon short but everyone protested!!! I never ever heard that before and it touched me again. In the evening I was at two concerts and then at a party and drank about four or five glasses of ... I think you call it Shandy, that is Beer and lemonade. Quite lovely, but ... yeah, I was quite tipsy afterwards. No headache the next day though and since I went to the loo before going to bed at 3 AM, I slept peacefully. Miriam, the third girl to help me, didn't have to wake me up that day, I was up earlier than she came but not early enough to avoid making her wait. The usual washing and breakfast was done, then chilling in the care-port, asking if my help of translating workshop was needed and then I went into the workshop I wanted to do which was called "Breaking through in hearing God's voice". Obviously it had been going on the day before already but I wasn't there. This day's workshop actually only consisted of the four guys from Oklahoma telling about their experiences with god and then they pr ayed for people. First the girl said she had a burden for women who need to know that they are truy precious in the LORD's eyes. Suddenly t hat touched me and I cried so I asked her to pray for me about it and she said she could see in her spirit the color of purple over me which meant royaty. I had this picture a couple of times now and if I don#t believe it by now I'm a fool. Then I asked someone to pray for my eyesight and most importantly for my calling. He prayed for the eyesight but nothing happened, and I have trouble expecting something when people pray for me now. In this area, I mean. But when he prayed for my calling he said that he sees that god has given me the gift of faith and the gift of intercession. He said I will pray and a lot will go on in the invisible world. There are especially three people, he said, that are closest to the LORD's heart, and I wil pray for them the most. He said that the LORD is going to give me the prayers that I shall pray about them and something will happen. Actually right now I think I got my dirst candidate ,but no name shall be mentioned here. I'm just glad I found my calling. Yay. I might go to the prayer house tomorrow. Anyways after that I went to a service. NOthing really touched me except that I had an impression that God will bring the emotions back to live that have been frozen and that the LORD would show his emotions to people. I didn't think much more to it and just did my thing afterwards, going shopping with MIriam, having dinner and hanging around with Miriam and a bunch of other poeple. I then had a couple of beers. We shared a bottle of beer, like, six people, whom I had only known for a day. It already felt like true friendship, it just felt like they totally accepted me. And mind you, they were all sighted. So that was just awesome. Anyways I had a waffle afterwards. As I was standing in the queue, someone in front of me turned around and talked to me. She was a girl of about 17 years old from Eastern Germany and she said that when she heard what I had said in the service, whe couldn#t understand all of it and forgot what I said pretty much, but still she suddenly started crying and got shivers down her back. I realized thati t had been the LORD. So I repeated the impression to her and then she told me that she is a nurse. "I see those other nurses, who have no love for the patients and ar e rather cold, and I don't want to be like that", she said, so I had the impression to pray for her. I prayed for her to receive the ORD's love for the patients, even for the difficult ones, and that she would be a true light in her work. We didn't know each other yet but we already gave each other a big hug and almost cried. Then I wanted to invite her and her friend and pay the waffle but they insisted to pay mine, so I shrugged, thanked them and went off, quite amazed. More beer was consumed, then coffee, then we went to a party in the coffee tent. But when two guys were so drunk that they poured beer on my new shirt I started to become grumpy and went to bed soon afterwards. Well and today was the last day. *cries* I started to truly love the jesus-freaks and kinda think it is a shame that there are no freaks here in this city. I will go to Marburg at the end of this month however and I will visit the freaks there. I am going there to visit Saskia and my old school mainly but I might just pop in and visit the freaks. Hee. Anyways we got a great service that went on for more than three hours and two guys from Oklahoma preached and I was touched again and just cried again like a baby. Haha. And now I am back here, and honestly, I'm sad. See churches don't accept people who ook or act differently than they do. But the freaks accept everyone. Really everyone, no matter how you look like. They welcome you. And that is such an example. I just love them and can truly identify with them. Going back to daily life sucks and doesn't make me happy really. Lol. But I guess I will have to do it anyways. MIght go to starbucks to comfort myself with a lovely flavoured coffee tomorrow, or with an ice cream or just ... I don#t know. I wil go to bed now though, so take care peoples and feel free to comment. Current Mood: okay, slightly sadish Current Music: my computer humming (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, July 28th, 2008
11:38 pm	Update from the adventurous girl Hey guys, first of all, thanks and yay to my friends for the many comments. You rule. Keep up the good work. I will shortly view my friends' site as well af ter this, probably very long entry. Okay, I have no clue when I updated last .I guess it was either Thursday or Friday and I am too lazy too look. Anyways on Friday that Free-food-for-everyone evangelization continued and I was with a group of people who wang worship songs while the people with the invitation cards passed them out to others around us. They had said that ,when people hear worship songs, they are even more open to take invitation cards. It was fun to worship the LORD on the streets but totally exhausting. I was groggy afterwards and was in bed by 9:30 which is ... very unusual for little Ines. On Saturday that evangelization was uneventful for me but hot and lots of headache was had after that. Then my parents came, braught the cupboard, moaned about me having gained weight again and about my room being a total mess. I tried to defend myself that I really didn't have much space but my parents didn't really accept that apology. I went home with them then which I seriously regret. I mean if I had known that they would leave me alone in front of the TV at six PM, I might as wel have been here, you know. So I watched TV, or rather, I slept in front of the TV. when finally, at ten PM, I realized it made no sense to stay downstairs much longer, I went up to bed. Sunday I visited my former church. Our pastor had just started the sermon when he exclaimed: "I see Ines! She must have crept in!! I hope you are doing fine!!!" I laughed, said that I was great but that we could talk later and let him continue his sermon. I don'T like to be the center when it should center on the LORD. Wow what a devout statement. Anyways I talked to a lot of people afterwards, said goodbye to the main pastor because he and his family will leave the church (sadly), and then went to McDonalds with Andrea, my friend, and then home to mine. My dad picked us up for the "forest gathering" which is around that time and takes four days where I live. we didn't eat anything, just drank water and sat around, rather bored. Then we went back to ours and cake was consumed. Andrea actually turned out to be my rescue. At least on the way to the station I didn'T have to listen to mum telling me what to do. She appologized for forgetting the tent and we found someone who would go to Karlsruhe today and who could bring it over. Not sure if you guys knkow but on Wednesday till Sunday I will go to a christian festival which mainly Jesus-Freaks but also ot her people attent. It's called Freakstock. Sounds weird but I only go there because of the company, the love for the LORD, the many workshops they have and the 24-7-prayer-tent. And of course to worship with brothers and sisters. Anyways I went back to Karlsruhe then but didn't do much anymore yesterday. And today? Nice day actually. It started rather normal, but then the lady came who braught my tent. Coffee was served and Sami, her and me talked for a while before she had to leave for work. Later Sami and I met Sami's girlfriend, Christine, at the Europe square, took some money, went to the drug store and then went to eat some ice cream and drink mil shakes, of which I had too many. Grrrr. Gaining weight again, silly me. I might try to eat less again tomorrow, wish me luck, or better, pray for me. We met a guy who fights with a sword and he had a theory that, if all had weapons, less crime would happen. No comment. He was peaceful and friendly though and so we didn't argue with him. He was open to the LORD at least, which is a plus. We went home then and looked online if there was any nice movie we could go to this evening, and there was. Mama Mia. It is the movie about the musical Mama Mia, which consists of a story where simply pretty much every famous Abba-Song can fit in. Yeah I know, some people think Abba is for older people, like in their 40's. But I actually still like them at times because they are so catchy, they just stick in your head. Before we went though me and Gav (My BF) had a very serious, honest but great conversation. Some tears were shed, but nothing severe. If anything it braught us closer. I am not going to say anything more, frankly I think it is intimate stuff and I am sure you will understand. Anyways, the movie was great. A quick review: A girl wants to marry and finds her mother's diary. She doesn't know her father but in this diary she found three guys that could possibly be her father because her mother had slept with them around the time where the girl was born. She invites them al three, secretly, without her mother knowing. They do turn up. The mother of course is quite shocked and furious and thinks her daughter doesn't know, so she tries to hide it from her. Slowly the three guys realize that they could be her father and they all three offer her to lead her to the altar on her wedding day which would be just the next day. She is confused, almost faints and finally asks her mother to simply lead her to the altar. Just when the ceremony should be done she blurts out that she has invited those three guys, the mother freaks out ,cries, they forgive each other, suddenly the girl decides not to marry but suggests to her groom that they should travel around the world first (because that was their dream but she wanted to help her mother with the hotel), one of the "fathers" doesn't want to waist the marriage stuff and marries the mother on the spot, after he admits how much he loves her. The two other fathers get with her mother's sisters. I know this is a kind of a typical happy-end-movie but that's how little Ines likes it. I iked the music and, to be honest, some sngers in that movie had better voices than the original Abba. I hope no Abba-fans will storm my house and try to get me now, and I serioiusly like Abba and their songs, but some voices had more --- power, and emotion, to beh onest. And I just loved how the songs all fit into the context of the story. I am sure this exists in English since it was played by English (or American) actors and I'd recommend it if you like comedy-love-movies. Phew. That was quite complicated. Lol. Anyways on our way back I decided that I would have a beauty day tomorrow. I will go to the hair-dresser. I will get a haircut, colour some streas bond to look just a bit younger and more youthful (since people actually guess I am 25 by the way I dress and all), colour my eye-lashes and trim my eye-brows, since I can't do all that myself. One may think I am doing that to get male attention but Gav doesn't have to worry, he's all I want anyways and I just do that for me because I feel more pretty then and if I go to the freakstock I want to look in the same age as the others. I was just about to figure out which hair-dresser I'd go to when Christine said she knew a cheeper one than the ones I knew and she wanted to go tomorrow anyways. So we are going together, which is even greater. Maybe she can advise me!!!! Yay!!!!! All right. I'd love any comments. Hugs, love and blessings Ines Current Mood: cheerful (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, July 16th, 2008
1:02 pm	little random update Hey guys. Yes, I know, it's been a while again, but aren'T you used to that from me by now? Lol. When did I post last? Ten or 11 days ago? Let's see if we can sumarize what happene,d eh? Well, Saturday after I posted, that is, 11 days ago, there was a party in the city and we went there. It was called "mile of voluntary work". Many churches fro mthe city had their stands thee, too, and so we looked at it. The church where I did my discipleship training school was there and they were pleased to see me. OF course the church where I live now was there too, and another church, and a small brazilian church. We went into their tent to just sit down and talk, because Sami, my housemate, nows them. And they suddenly started singing worship songs and worshipping god, i nthe middle of the market place!!! I loved it, of course, and truly felt god moving there. Later we went to the main stage where a teenie-band from the biggest church in the city was playing ,which was just awesome. I could feel god moving there as well, and I am sure people were touched, even people who do not know Jesus. That was just a blessing. We then went and had dinner with the whole house, and afterwards me, Sami and his girlfriend went to another church because they have revival nights every saturday. (Only we did not know back then what it was called). It was just two hours of solid worship, then a small input, then prayer for those who wanted or needed prayer. It is very good. Sunday was not too special I think, except I was in the youth service, which was nice. Monday was nothing, really. Tuesday was my weightloss thing where I Realized that even though I did not really care about my nutrition in England, I still lost two pounds, which pleased me. Wednesday I went to the meeting for the blind. It was very nice, I had way too much to eat and waaay too greasy but at that time I simply didn't care. you know, when youy just eat together, you just don'T care. Then someone told me that her eyes were worse and that the doctor almost sent her to a clinic but gave her another chance until Monday. But if the eyes would not be better by Monday, she wouldh ave to go to a clinic. I felt god say clearly to me that I should lay hands on her but I was too proud, too shy or whatever you call it and didn't do it, because I was scared others would think I was strange. I regret it now, yes, but I had plenty of other chances to be obedient which I actually took. Then Wednesday evening we had healing prayer, which was very powerful. We read the scripture about the pool of Bethesta and that crippled man, and where Jesus then says "Rise, take up your mat, and go." In the silent time where we should move this scripture in our hearts and think about it, I felt God speak to me through it: "Ines, you have become passive. You are lying near the pool, wanting to get in, wanting to get healed, but do nothing for it. You let others pray for you as often as prayer is offered, but when have you last asked me yourself? Rise from your laziness, take up what you have been lying on (I can still not figure what that is) and walk, go yoursef and as me." I was totally surprised about that clarity and immediately prayed, of course. I received prayer later, only to underline what I already said and that I wanted to be more active. I haven't done much yet, though, to be honest. I am still too passive. LORD, please help me to be more active. Thursday was gymnastics and afterwards Martin prepared a bible study for us which was, to be honest, very tricky but good anyways. friday we went to a worship night in the evening which was simply amazing. Two hours of solid worship. Wow. And a small input inbetween them. And then people could go to the front to receive prayer and god said to me: Stay here and pray for yourself this time. So I did. I was obedient that time. Afterwards there was of course an offering, which owuld go to an organization where they feed the poor of the city. They needed loads and loads of food, and without God that would have been almost impossible to cover. I had wanted to buy a burger on my way back, but when the LORD told me to put all the money I had into the offering box, I did it. Later after the worship night, the pastor said, just as we were on our way out: "I have great news. With the offering we received I can voer 90 % of all we need!!" I was thriled, thanking the LORD that I could be a part of doing that. Later we stood outside, waiting for the tram. Someone talked about the prophetic seminar this church had in May and he told us that he had finally got the CDs where this seminar was recorded. I Just said I wished I had that seminar, too, when he suddenly went away, came back and handed me a copy. I was speechless. He said he had baught two copies in case someone wanted one .I ased him how much money I owed him and he just said "Just forget about it." I was ottally overcome. I was amazed and could just glorify god. Saturday we went walking again which was great. In the afternoon we went to the Brazilian church we had met the Saturday before. They are just soooo on fire for the LORD and soooo open for new people. After the service the pastor said she wanted me to give my testimony the next time I would be there and I said I ould do that gladly. Then we went to the revival night in the other church again and it wasj ust soooo amazing. I Just loved it. All the way home I Just kept glorifying the LORD. I had childlike faith again for certain things, and it was just a great day. Sunday was the service where I live, of course, which was very good also, a rather good sermon, very good acts and a very good lunch together afterwards. In the evening I was at the bible school place again and that was great ,too. Oh, but inbetween those two services something great happened. I talked to my boyfriend again and we decided that he would come on the 9. of September. That was so amazing!!! I was sooo happy!! And then at the church where I did my DTS I even found someone who will help me pick him up. That was just great. Monday was uneventful, so was yesterday apart from a boring catholic service in our house where I was obligated to go to and a nice gathering downstairs afterwards, outside with sausages and salad and just talking and enjoying the lovely weather. And today? Not much is happening, later we got the teaching evening and that's all. I'm just so so so happy that my boyfriend is going to come sooner than I thought. Friday is a worship night again here where I live, I wil certainly go there. saturday I will go on a tirp with the blind people where I always go to and to a pool party afterwards, and Sunday is a service out with a BBQ afterwards. So, life is good, just still jobless. Current Mood: good Current Music: me typing (Comment on this)
Tuesday, June 3rd, 2008
9:11 pm	Do you think I'm weird? Hey all, I Know, weird question. But I have a reason. Well lately I have suddenly found a new pa ssion in me: Virtual pet games. I know, this is rather childish ... but I just started on two sites today haha and I just can't seem to stop. I know there are plenty of people who do this, but still ... most interesting about this is that both sites are about dogs. As a child I was afraid of them. Now, secretly, I'd love to have one but I don't for fear of not knowing how to treat it right and out of worry if I'd ever manage to learn that, and also for fear that my boyfriend might not like them, he said something of that sort, me thinks. *sighs* so I spend time on there. ridiculous maybe, but yeah. I know I shoudl get a life, lol. Apart fro mthat nothing new happened here. Except that Saskia is now sure to be able to continue school, yay for that, and thank you JEsus!!! You are the best!! That's all for now. Current Mood: good Current Music: Someone playing the flute and me typing (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, June 2nd, 2008
10:10 am	Just a quick update Hi all, man, what a week. Last Monday, I think, I wrote last. Oh well. Last Monday evening I then had a bad throat. I immediately prayed against it of course. No success. I sometimes wonder why praying for my sickness doesn't help usually. I Guess you non-christians will think: Before he doesn't exist. Or something. But, no. I just guess either i don't have enough faith or ... I don'T know. Tuesday I discovered that I had temperature. Not majorly but a little bit. So I didn't do much, neihter on Wednesday. Thursday I heard that I had no more temperature, but that I have a bronchitis. fun. Not. But they refused to give me anything against it, theyj ust said I should drink a lot of water and don't do sports. *sighs*. I think it was Friday when we went to the food store where you can only get biological, healthy food. Baught a wholemeal bread and some fruit bars where all the vitamins of fruits are in since I can't stand fruits. The bars taste weird but okay. I was so nackered after going to that place, because the heat, the humidity and my sickness really weakened me and still does a bit. Saturday the others had to go jogging, I wasn't allowed and so I watched TV, because there was a sermon from Joyce Meyer on and the nanother christian show. Afterwards we went to buy things for the bbq that we would have on Sunday, and then me, Sami and his friend went to the brazilian church. That was awesome, they were so open!! They hugged me, really seemed glad that I was there and just ... were amazing. And the service was great as well. Of course they got a lot of fire for the LORD and I like that. So, we had a blessed time there. Then we went to burger king for some burgers and an ice cream and went home then, to enjoy Sami's little birthday cake. oh yeah. It was his Birthday on Friday, we of course celebrated that. Yesterday then we had a bbq in the afternoon with an ice-cream party. there was so much food!! I baught vegetarian sausages, very hot ones. And there were 8 types of ice cream: Cherry, Amarena-cherry, Strawberry, vanilla, chocolate, Straciatella, walenut, Tiramisu ... and then some fruits, cream, coconut bits, bits of almonds, and some yummy biscuits. So, all in all, really really good. And then in the evening, at the church where I did the discipleship training school, they had an american thanks-giving party and a bbq as well. Lol. But I didn't eat much there, but tried grilled Marshmallows for the first time. Yummy!!!!!!!! Then went home and messed around in the chat room of my friend Pia, which was fun, and then went to bed. And today? Still coughing badly, not getting better. I am listening to music at the moment and just typing here, and will do someothing with Sami later who has the week off and boredom would kill him otherwise lol. So talk to you laters. Hugs all, and may the LORD bless you. Current Mood: okay Current Music: praying for you (webradio Yhot, christian HipHop and R&B) (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, May 29th, 2008
11:49 am	Little update Hey all, I am sitting here at my desk, wondering if I should get to bed again. Why? Because I got bronchitis, and a cold, and I had temperature the last two days. The last thing I want is that it returns. They told me not to do my exercise. Yay, finally an excuse. Lol JK. And not to walk that far ,but rather stay here or in bed. But staying in bed all day can be horribly boring. I wish my wireless headphones would work. Then it would be no problem. But now ... I am just sitting here and typing and rambling. But I think I will be fine by the time I will go to England. At least I hpoe so. LORD, please ,let me be absolutely fine by then. I just trust in the LORD, that's all I can do. What else happens here? Glad I don't have to do gymnastics tonight. Oh yes, even being ill has its advantages. I know, i am a hopeless case of laziness. Lol I gues thee's not much to comment here and I don't want to endulge in self-pity. Actually I feel pretty good, except for the cough. I simply now that the LORD is with me and alone that should be the reason I am happy. All right, that's all for now. Love you lots, and may the LORD bless you!!! Current Mood: lazy Current Music: Sheila Walsh: Step by step (God you are my god) (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, May 26th, 2008
10:05 am	My weekend Hi all, well, here I am again, I guess it is pretty much a miracle that I update so much lately. But hey, it's fun and I got nothing else to do, so yeah. Phew. I just had to delete my internet explorer update again. Why? It swallowed half of my letters that I typed! Stupid thing. Oh well. And I thought it was my keyboard and asked for a new one, borrowed one from my house until I'd get mine from Ebay. But hey, my other one is so old anyways, already seven years old. It is time that it can rest. Lol Well, about my weekend now: On Friday I met Ines. Nope, I did not meet myself, but an old schoolmate of mine, one who was in my class for two years. She now lives in the same city as I do. It is funny. I do not believe in coincidence. Do you? So I finally me t her again after almost two years ,we had some ice cream and then went to buy some things. That was nice ,however I had the impression that Ines is kind of a gossip, not really into christianity either, but I can not force her, can I? I don't want to at all, forcing just draws her further away so I just pray for her. So, that evening was okay too. saturday morning I went by train to Saskia's, we went and baught myself a lovely cell phone (or mobile if you are fro mthe UK, haha) for only 19 euros. Then we had lunc hat hers and then I invited her to an ice cream. Oh yeah, there was a totally crazy thing hap pening: I went to the bank ,but they refused to give me money because I was not in the town where I had my account. When I went to the bus stop again with Saskia, clearly annoyed that I could not pay an ice cream for her and me, suddenly a lady came, saying she saw what happened inthe bank and wanted to give us ten euros. I said it is not necessary, but she insisted. So ... what should I do? I was speechless, thanked her, said that the LORD may bless her tremendously for it and she went away. So we could have an ice cream after all. A huuuge cube of caramel ice cream, caramel sauce and little peaces of caramel. Mmmmh that was just soooooo gooood. Well, at half past seven my train would leave, so we wanted to get the bus at five to seven. But there was no bus at five to seven. My friend totally forgot that they only came once per half an hour. So I missed my train. i decided to go an hour later. Missed that one too, because it came oon the wrong platform and we were too slow to get it. I just knew that when I would go anotherh our later I'd arrive so late and there would be many drunks on the streets, so we asked Saskia's mother if she minded if I spent the night there, but I said I have oneo problem: I neither have tooth brush, nor pyjama, nor anything. She said it is fine, I needn't worry. So we went back, had dinner and went to bed soon. Yesterday then she missed the bus with me again and her poor mother had to take me to the station, because I would have to be back early here for a short trip. we went to the chinese restaurant with our house. I had chicken, shrimps, garlic sauce ,vegetables and rice, Martin, my housemate, had the same. We get on fantastically, Martin and me. Then we went b ack home again and we had church service at five PM. Before that though we had a laugh. Martin askes Sami, my other housemate, to bring the vacuum-cleaner back downstairs tomorrow morning and I was sure Sami would forget it again, because he keeps forgetting things .He then told me he wanted a bet. "let's bet for ten euros that I will bring it downstairs tomorrow morning." I agreed, laughging. Well and guess what? I just knew it. This morning it was clear: He forgot it and I won the bet, and now I can't wait for his reaction when he comes home from work!!! Lol!!! And now? Now I am sitting here ,typing, listening to Hillsong united and planning to go to the bank soon, then getting new prepaid credit for my mobile, getting the CD from the christian book shop and getting some things fro mthe drug store - and maybe some semi-skinned milk. So, that's all. And, by the way, thank you, Jess, for being the only commenter at the moment. I'd love to have more comments, guys, to see if you are still reading this thing. Lol Hugs and love to all, and may the LORD bless you. Ines Current Mood: good Current Music: vereinte Kräfte: better act now (christian Hip Hop) (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, May 20th, 2008
10:23 am	A chaotic, yet amazing weekend Hey all, Wow. What a weekend. Chaotic, yes, but great. Well, let's start at the beginning. My housemate Sami had told me about two weeks ago that a very famous preacher, Benny Hinn, would be in stuttgart and he told us that a pastor of a church he knows would takes him there and asked me if I wanted to come along. I had heard a lot about Benny Hinn from my boyfriend and so I was really really really excited. Well, on Thursday sami wanted to check with the pastor again if all was planned, and then he heard that she would not go. This made him angry. So I said "Okay, I won't give up. I will go by train. Wanna come along?" So we agreed. I checked for a train we could take, registered in the stadia where it would be so that we'd have seats, and looked forward to the next day. right. My train should leave at ten past four PM. I went to the station. Before going to the train, I wanted to buy something to drink. It was a long long queue. If I had known I'd have arrived earlier. Oh well. Anyways suddenly I looked at my watch and saw that it was five minutes past four and I'd still have to go to the platform. I was running (in high heals, mind you), but when I arrived it was already too late. Now, unfortunately, my housemate had no mobile phone. We had agreed that he would mount the train a station after I would get on, because it would be closer to his work place. So now we had the situation: I was at the station and Sami one station further, boarding the train and looking for me frantically .He had no ticket. We thought he could trave lalong with me for free anyways because of my disability passport. But since I wasn't there, there Sami was without a ticket, panicking and looking for me. I felt so damn bad. I could have slapped myself. Well, actually, I did, but let's forget this. I went to the mobility service, asking what I could do. They had no idea either, except that I should go with the fast train. Now the proble mwas that I needed money for that because I can not go on a fast train for free as a blind person. So i wanted to get money from a machine, and this stupid machine took my card and didn't give it back! So I was there, without a banking card, really furious. I know, you non-christians will think I am mad now, but I know one thing. We christians have an enemy. The devil. I know for sure that he wanted to keep me from going to the Benny Hinn meeting. But he wouldn't win. I sat down and earnestly thought about it and prayed. I hadn o idea in what situation Sami was, so I thought, maybe he'd go to Stuttgart and wait for me there. So I thought "should I go home now, or should I go to Stuttgart, assuming he'd be there, waiting for me?" So I decided to go. It was no fast train and I was scared of coming too late. But someone showed me another train that would go to Stuttgart faster. Sami was not at the station and I was afraid to lose my way trying to go to the stadia by bus. So I took a taxi, which was awfully expensive but I had no choice. I was there early enough but did not know anyone. And so I just asked the next best person I could find. It was a lovely woman from a church nearby. She had another friend coming with her, so those two friends helped me to get a seat with them and prayed for me and described everything to me, even bringing me a drink. It was really lovely. The meeting was amazing. They started with worship of course, then Benny Hinn came to the platform and preached aber salvation being the greatest miracle. He defined grace, and the way he defined it was so touching. He said: "Imagine you have a son, and someone kills your son. Now, you have three possibilities: Either you kill the murderer. That makes you a murderer yourself. Or you let him be judged by the law. Or you forgive him. And not only forgove him." He then explained how God forgives. "you can not only forgive him, but tell him: 'I love you as my own son. You have the status my son had and everything that belonged to my son is now yours, and I love you, just as I loved my son'. This is how God's grace is." It was touching. Then he asked people who had not received Jesus yet but wanted to, to go up front. About thousand people came up front, giving their lives to Jesus, and that was soooo touching. AFterwards people were healed of Tumors, arthritis and so on and so on, and I wished my time would come to be healed, too. But still it was encouraging to hear all those stories about people being healed. Right. The meeting ended at eleven and, honestly, I was too scared to go home to Karlsruhe on my own. So we prayed, the two ladies and me, that there would be a possibility that someone'd bring me home. And there he was: The father of my friend Andrea, who used to go to church with me when I still lived with my parents! He saw me and we talked. So, at the end, he said: "Okay, Ines. You have three possibilities now. Either you stay here in the stadia over night, which I would not recommend. Or you go home to your parents. Or you come home with us." I hesitated. I knew, of course, that I could not stay there over night, at the stadia. I also knew that if I'd ring the bell at my parents' at one o'clock in the morning, they would not be thrilled, provided they'd even be there. So I said I'd go with them if that was all right with them. So I went home with them. They all knew me. When I was still with my parents, it was them who took me with them to many places, healing services, pentecost conference and so on. It was amazing. So Andrea's grandmother helped me to get settled, even lent me a pyjama. Of course I had not braught anything with me. That was really fun. Fortunately the pyjama fitted, lol. So I slept on a couch. Pretty well, actually, but probably simply because I had not slept until 5 AM the previous night. So the next morning I woke up and prepared myself to go. They asked me if I wanted to come back and see the other two meetings with Benny HInn. I was thrilled. I see the LORD working in that. I was planning to go there once, and now he helped me to go three times. It was fantastic. They took me, then, even bringing food and drink with them for me. It was touching how they helped me. I love this family. LORD, bless them for all this. The morning meeting was amazing, but the meeting in the evening was the best. It started with worship again and then another little sermon about salvation. Even more than the day before came up front and prayed, receiving Jesus in their lives. Even twin brothers, 77 years old. It was amazing. Then, when people were being healed, there was another blind girl who then could see and I felt ... encouraged, but ... hmmm, jealous? And I started complaining to God a bit. Also someone with a whole in their heart was being healed. So I complained a bit, silently, until I almost felt God saying to me: Don't complain, just thank me! I swallowed. That was direct. Okay then. So I repented and thanked him, and that is when he touched me also. Not in the way that I imagined, but that is ust how it is with the LORD. And that's why I think he is so amazing. I felt he purified me. I felt the power go straight into my belly and into my heart, purifying me. He told me that streams of blessings would flow and that he would use me. And that encouraged me. Then a woman whom I didn't know offered to go up front with me. So I accepted, a bit nervous though. When I came up front my worst fears came true: People pushing each other, stepping on each other's feet, only so Benny Hinn would lay his hands on them and fill them with the anointing. I was frantic and claustrophobic. I said "LORD, please let this be worth something, because I can hardly breathe here." Then two men prayed for me. It wasn't Benny Hinn but two of his team, and that was fine with me too. They prayed for my eyesight and that I would be anointed from the top of my head to the tips of my toes. That was great. And they prayed that I would be a minister, telling the gospel to Family and friends. And that made me cry. Also Benny Hinn asked for partners in gErmany. So I applied. I would send about 20 euros per month to them, that would be 30 Dollars for you US guys. I would help feeding and educating 45000 children aroudn the world, most of them would be wonderful christians later, and I would help Benny Hinn to preach the gospel in all the world. He even has the chance to meet up with the Chinese government. So if you are a christian, please pray that the Chinese will be more open. So yeah, after the last meeting the questio nremained: Who would bring me home? And so we found someone from the mission works, a church in Karlsruhe where I live, and they took me home. It was a great weekend. Sunday was good too, I interpreted the service at Steiger, from German to English, which is, as you may know, more difficult for a German native than english into German. But it all worked fantastically fine. Okay, that's about it for now. Now I am just sitting here, hoping that Barbara would call, telling me when she'd be free to visit me. On Thursday I'll meet with the other Ines from my former class, who now lives close to Karlsruhe as well, and on Saturday I will meet with Saskia at her town. Right, that's really all for now. Just a quick reminder: If you need prayer, you can either talk to me on skype or email me. The info is above. I will pray and see if the LORD has any encouraging word for you. Just an offer, but I'd love it if someone used it. Okay, blessings to all my readers. and big hugs. Current Mood: good Current Music: Tim Hughes: be glorified (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, May 15th, 2008
3:54 pm	offering services Hey guys, I just had an ide and I wonder if this came from the LORD: I have a heart for prayer and prophetic impressions, pictures of visions. And I want to be available for those who have prayer requests. Now, how I mean it is this: Whenever oyu have a prayer request you can send me an email. I will pray for you and see, if the LORD has any encouraging word or picture for your situation or for you in general. I may not always have one but I will at least pray for oyu and I know that the LORD answers prayers. So if you need someone to join you in prayer: Just email me. smiling_ines87@yahoo.de If you need personal prayer, you can add me to skype. My skype name is queen of laughter. You know, an unemployed girl needs occupation and other than sitting at home bored I can at least be useful to the kingdom of the LORD. So feel free to use the offer. Current Mood: cheerful Current Music: let us lift him to the sky, Cherry Keegui (1 Comment |Comment on this)
1:30 pm	any of you guys remember me? :d Oh my. I know, it's been ... ages and ages and ages and ages since I posted on here, but things were just ... difficult. What I mean is, I had no internet until two weeks ago and frankly I forgot the livejournal for a while. *shamed face* lol. So - what's new? Too much to remember it all hahaha. Lately the LORD has been blessing me with many things. Last week I was at a pentecost conference with Colin Urquhart and what he said revolutionized much of my thinking and prayer life. Tomorrow I am going to see Benny Hinn in Stuttgart, maybe I'm getting healed. Not on the outside, not my vision, but inner healing I mean. You just never know what God has planned. I Justk now that he will touch me in one way or the other. And in 25 days I will be off to the UK to see my boyfriend again!!!! I tell you, guys, he is a huuuuuuuge blessing and I would not trade him for anything. Without him I would not have received so much inner healing as I did in this year. What I mean is: He acknowledges me, says I am beautiful and just takes me for serious and accepts me as I am, gladly. And that encourages me to like myself more as well. That is why I do believe that he is a gift from God. We met once in February and that was a blessing, though that one week where we met was waaaaaaaay too short. I guess the three weeks where I will go now will be too short either, haha, but hey, better three weeks than one, eh? I am also so glad I can use skype again, that makes talking to him and other people way easier. If anyone doesn't have my skype but wants to add me, just comment me here. I love to talk on skype now. Also with my family things are in progress. Especially with mum and dad. They have been here, at the place where I live, and they have a good impression. My sister is distant, no hug except when I give her something, but that is nothing new. The only person that worries me is my grandmother. She had a small stroke three months ago, fell down, hit her head on the radiator and broke her knee. She has been to rehab after the surgery but left earlier than planned, her knee is hardly better at all, she screams with every second step she takes and my mum told me at the last phone call that she has the impression that Grandma already drinks Cognac in the mornings now. Now this is the worst. You don't know yet that in my childhood my grandma was someone I looked up to. I thought, while my parents drank and smoked, she didn't do those things. When I would have trouble with my parents I would run to her house and stay there. She'd listen, she'd be attentive and just comfort me. But in the last few years I realized that she drinks. Secretly. My mum and dad at least do it openly but she does it secretly. She hides bottles in every cupboard and whenever she passes she takes a mouthful. It seems that my roll model is crumbling and this is kinda shocking to me. I still love her but I wonder what I can do for her, because when we talk to her about that what she is doing is not good for her, she is offended and things we are bossing her around. But indeed it is dangerous. My grandmother has to take many pills, partially for blood pressure, and against her pain. And this combined with alcohol is dangerous! But she doesn't think about that. She thinks cognac is her only comfort. That makes me very sad and I feel helpless. I guess the only thing we can do is pray and put her into the LORD's hand. the weather here has been nice but today they said there'd be rain. Oh well. I am on a diet again which works fairly well, even though I still slide back at times and eat whatever things I shouldn't eat. But hey nobody's perrfect. I am in a weightloss group and together, knowing that there are even older women who have the same problem, somehow comforts me. Haha. And it encourages me. So yeah, all is really good at the moment. Feel free to comment me. In fact I'd be glad to receive some comments. I love you all and I hope the LORD will bless you. hugs and winks Ines Current Mood: cheerful Current Music: Toby Mack, I'm for you (1 Comment |Comment on this)